This morning I had a sweet moment with Lydia. I was waking her up for school. You have to understand that my Lydia is my little girl. She is a night owl just like me. She would rather stay up half the night and sleep the morning away. So I know when I woke her this morning she was still far away lost in her dreams. I woke her up and she looked at me said. "I can't touch Seth's hair" I said what? "I can't touch Seth's hair." Then she cradled her arms like she was holding him. She looked at me and "Seth is in his bed" I loved hearing her talk about him. I asked her "Do you miss Seth?" "Yes" she said. "I do too!" I said. Oh I feel so bad for waking her too soon. She must have been having such sweet dreams with her little brother.
And I have to admit I am jealous. I long to dream about my baby boy. If I could just see him in my dreams. I would love to know what he is doing in heaven. I would love to hold him in my arms if only in my dreams. I would love to feel his hair too! I would love to feel the wait of his body. Or smell his sweet skin. If only in my dreams I would love to just be with him. Maybe I will get my turn...I will hope for it everynight as I put my head on the pillow and sleep.
Sweet dreams my dear children. I love you all.
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